Wednesday, August 26, 2009

That night when Koko loved Nikki...

My master critique was beyond perfection. Mary Ellen Mark (as well as the ten or so other students) absolutely loved my doll work. Mary Ellen had not one negative thing to say to me. Okay- well there was the one thing:

"Don't let people know you actually like the dolls, treat it as though it were a conceptual art project".

The truth is, I always do when pitching my work- but I am sure my eyes light up with a unique twinkle the moment I mention those damn slabs of silicone! My Mary Ellen Mark review was SO good, that she promised me the moon. But I guess she forgot, because I never heard back from her. During the critique with my forty chosen photos lined up on the table- she called all of her assistants in, as well as her business partner (they have a film company named 'Green Films' or something like that). They all gushed over how awesome my lighting is, my use of colors and my general creativity. It was quite an ego boost! They all loved the dolls of course- and really, who wouldn't?

Oh well, So nothing came of it. I will throw her into the same category as Taschen, HBO, Howard Stern and now, Mary Ellen Mark. It's the compartment in my mind entitled, "Disappointed".

Sometimes people feed your head with all this great stuff about your work, and it does serve to empower you as an artist. It helps you to move forward and not give up, especially when you question yourself and your talent. So in a sense, I did get my money worth... But I would have rather she had given me the email to the publisher she knows- like she said she would. She even told me to use her name in the subject line. I think her assistant was the actual roadblock, at least that's what I want to think.

So in honor of art and erotica in art, I have created this shoot aptly titled:

"That night Koko loved Nikki"

*the above photos are of my two 4Woods dolls. They are the AINeo and Evolution bodies with the Mia and Elina heads... But I call them Nikki and Koko. Obviously.

So fucking gorgeous.



Anonymous Realdoll Owner said...


Your work is amazing!! I love every shot you have ever shown us...dolls or not...(Wish I had just a small percent of your talent!!)

Those places/people who have disappointed you are FOOLS! You are a hot lady with MAD SKILLS!! and I love your personality!!

These shots are amazing!! Some of my favorites.

Never have a bigger audience than you'll ever know...screw those who don't cash in on it! (well don't really screw

Big hugs sis!

MichaelV. said...

I'd say you got your moneys worth too always good to have such feedback. Too bad there wasn't any follow-up yet but things happen. Have you though of a nice email telling her how much her words meant. Give things a chance to happen. But good for you!

Tanya said...

This series is phenomenal! I'm such a fan! the angles of voyeurism in some of the shots, the styling& wardrobe, the expressions shown in everything of hand/limb placement. Simply wonderful and erotic.

Elisheba said...

You are gifted, Stacy.
Do not feel disappointed.
It is not worth it.

Like Michael said, I think you should write Mary Ellen Mark.

I love your art.
You are an amazing photographer and human being.

James M Graham said...


And you know I don't toss that shit around lightly...

patrick said...

Your Best work!

glenn usdin said...

don't be disappointed. be proud.

you need to make your own luck.

MEM or anyone else is not going to do it for you. don't even bother writing her. she is the competition. of course she is not going to help you. not that she wasn't friendly and all.

go and show your work. every damn day. every damn magazine editor and art buyer in the city.

keep shooting, creating, and marketing. i think the only thing you are missing is the marketing.

if Mary didn't like your work, she would have told you. you got your money's worth. 10X.

now its Stacy-time.

you don't need to work on your lighting or your styling or your model selection or you locations or your technique.

you need to get your images in front of every damn art buyer or photo editor who can use your services.

don't get discouraged. you are light years ahead of the pack. now switch hats from shooter to seller. get some of that old Wall Street moxie and make sure anyone and everyone who hires photographers knows your work and your name.

go for it.

semi234 said...

I consistantly LOVE the storytelling aspect of your work.

Wolf189 Photography said...

Very fun story! : )

Your work is very good and you know that your work is very good's just a matter of keep doing it and marketing it.

I wish she would've kept her promise...but that happens all the time to all of us.


The_N_Word. said...

sexy. love it.