People Are Strange When You're a Stranger....

It's true...and Jim Morrison came up with that long before the internet was around. I shudder to think what he would say about it had he been around for the world wide web. In the last couple of weeks, I have been exposed to the ugly side of the internet- From obsessive models writing me daily to other photographers scamming to meet me- I am more then a little shaken up. I am somewhat of a recluse dispite the fact that I'm married. Ah marriage...*sigh, that's a whole other story...

Well, I started my first photography class and it was wonderful. A few things happened that made everything fall into place...I was on a waiting list for a night class- due to a high demand they added one. This was a good thing for me for two reasons, first the teacher is a female- I can't pull any bullshit with a woman, which is what I did to male teachers my entire scholastic career. Secondly the class I was originally signed up for, was being taught by a photographer who does portraits. Not the cool interesting kind, but the plain graduation type headshots. The class I wound up in is far better suited for me because the teacher was a painter (so am I) and is heavy on the artistic side of photography. THIS is what a self proclaimed 'Glamour" photographer needs to break the monotony....

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So awhile back I received a message from a beautiful model who said she wanted to shoot with me. I was enamoured with her face the moment I layed eyes on it. When I asked her what style she was interested in- she said 'Ellen Von Unwerth'. Now. if you have ever seen my portfolio, then you know- I (nor anybody else for that matter) am no Ellen Von Unwerth. I took this to mean that she in fact was NOT interested in working with me. So I let our correspondance slowly drift off of the main page and outta' site. Thing is- I can't stop thinking about how much I want to shoot with her. I'd love to give black and whites a fair shot. Besides I still adore her face!!! I am all wierd about contacting her now, but I feel it rearing itself and know that I'll write her soon. I'll bet she never responds...I can't say I blame her.

Well, I have many shoots lined up and all with STUNNING models!!! The first shoot is most important to me, because it is with Susie Da Silva. She is the first realgirl I photographed (as opposed to the dolls) so our first shoot together was sub-par to both of our current work. She is beautiful and just as sweet. I actually made an introduction between her and Playboy...and needless to say she will be in Aprils issue. I really hope she becomes a Playmate- she is certainly pretty enough.

I used to want to shoot for Playboy, but I am SO over that too. Outside of pretty lighting- the photos are boring. That's right- I said it...BORING!!!!! Just cheesy poses, of made up girls...I see that every day. Playboy hasn't been that same since Helmut Newton passed away. He was their only contributing photographer that had art coursing through his veins. Besides, the quality of girl they use for the centerfold has slipped to the "Everygirl USA" thing. When I was younger,the Playmates were special. and the way they looked was totally unattainable to us regular folk. If I want to look at a regular girl all I have to do is walk around the city for awhile...they're everywhere. I miss Pamela Anderson and Jenny McCarthy (sp?) types...

I'm going to Miami this Thursday. Woot! I need some sunshine, cuz I'm not getting ANY sex. Apparently I gave it up for marriage...