Monday, December 8, 2008
The day that changed my life...
A day much like today, except it was a little later in the morning and I was totally clueless that my life was about to change.
Last Tuesday (12/02/08 to be technical) I went to my sink to make a pot of coffee. Without warning, my left arm went wonky. I couldn't feel it. Cold sweats, dizzy, labored breathing- my head felt weird...I had to sit down. Even my bowels became loose. I was terrified and aware of what was happening and trying not to freak out- but I was convinced I was having a stroke.
The Doctor referred to it as a TIA Stroke or Transient Ischemic Attack. It is a bona-fide stroke, but fortunately it is one that has no lasting effects. My uncle had a major stroke by the time he turned 50. But I am 37. The chances of a reoccurrence within the first month is 4-8%, within the 1st year is 18%. Many people who suffer a TIA stroke, suffer a much larger stroke sometime within their life.
I don't have much to say, as I am totally freaked out and very upset by this. Heart disease runs in my family...I would be lying if I said I wasn't terrified...
What if I can never press the shutter on a camera? Or lift my dolls for a shoot? Or have a baby? Or live to see 50?
I don't want to die, I'm too young. I have things to do.
*the above photo is of my three dolls. I had four but gave one away, somebody said I would have good Karma. yeah right.